Sunday, August 12, 2012

With only 7 days to go..

I'm feeling a tad sad (haishh...again with the 'sad' thing...give it up why don't you??) that Ramadhan is almost over. I haven't been able to finish reciting the Quran  :(  and I was only able to perform Tarawikh only 7 times out of this almost finished month.

And right now, I'm torn between folding clothes or washing the dishes from this morning, heh.

Maybe I should make a list (pssttt..Aina, tiru u boleh? heh) so that I'll be better organized (yeah, right!)

Ok, here goes:

1- Tidy up our bundles of clothes!!!! <--------- this is my main concern since they're smack dab in the front area of the house.

2- Sweep the floor and the ceiling (spiderwebs everywhere!!!)

3- Make more choc chips cookies (more on this later heh)

4- Wash the windows

5- Tidy up outside

At least with the coming Eid celebration I'm motivated to spring clean the house. If not, it would've stayed this way forever..forever..forever...forever......


Thursday, August 9, 2012

BM entry: Hati tersentuh

Sebak bila tengok seorang lelaki tua yang dah berumur 70'an bekerja gigih menjual air tebu di bulan puasa ni. Dia selalu demam tapi waktu sihat, memang tak senang duduk diam, ada saja kerja yang nak dibuat.

Rambut yang beberapa tahun dulu masih ada kehitaman, sekarang dah penuh uban.
Tangan tuanya penuh kedutan dan rekahan dek terlalu banyak bermain air.

Senyuman tetap tersedia di bibir tatkala melayan pelanggan yang tak putus datang.
Hati ini tersentuh.

Kasihan melihat seorang ayah yang pada usia itu masih gigih mencari rezeki.
Sedangkan anaknya boleh melepak di pondok sambil bermain telefon.

Sungguh.
Hati ini tersentuh.

Ke mana kasih seorang anak sehingga tidak terdetik untuk membantu si ayah?
Tidakkah dia sedar, dia juga bakal tua suatu hari nanti?

Sedih.
Hati ini menangis.

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Being The Mediator..

I'm stuck in the middle of a cold war.
It has lasted almost 6 years now.

Being the only one partial to both parties, I have been or rather I
have appointed myself as the "MEDIATOR'.

Unfortunately, I'm no Kate Reed.

This coming Eid will mark the 7th year of the war.
So far, one party is willing to meet but the other party has been reluctant
whenever I try to arrange a meeting in order to resolve this stupid war. :(

I am SAD.
I have been unable to patch things up.
Just like I am unable to run my own little family.

Ugh.

Ya ALLAH, aku hamba-Mu yang kerdil, bantulah aku menghadapi dugaan hidup di dunia ini agar kehidupanku di akhirat kelak lebih baik. Jika ini adalah ketentuan-Mu, kurniakanlah kepadaku kekuatan
dan ketabahan.  



Saturday, August 4, 2012

Day 15

Things are beginning to settle down a bit, alhamdulillah.
I'm finally getting into the groove..yeaahhhh...hehhe

I'm currently tackling our overloaded/overwhelming bundles of clothing items.
Asked Ahmad to make some wooden shelves like to ones from IKEA but so far, his bundles are still all over the floor. We've been needing a proper storage system since forever but financially we can't afford to buy any 'industrial' shelves. Whenever I suggested we buy some shelves, he would say he'd make some DIY since he's good at welding but that day has yet to come. *sigh*

Been feeling melancholic. Depressed. Saddened by things in my life that I have no control over.
Frustrated.

Ok, ok..enough is enough.

Heh.