Oh noooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

petang tadi bawak shahrin pi klinik sebab dia demam panas dari semalam tak mau kebah. aku dah jelum2 dari semalam sampai petang tadi tak turun gak temperature dia, panas sampai dia asyik nangeh sakit kepala katanya. manja pun ada tu..nama ja abang long heheh

doktor tu check lebih kurang & kena la rm28 untuk ubat demam, batuk, Vit. C (aku pun tak paham pasaipa dia prescribe vit tapi tadi takdan nak tanya sebab kalut nak balik dah) & ubat hingus untuk Nazrin. dia tu plak beringuih meleleh2 dah dekat 2 bulan tak baik2 jugak..heran sungguh..sampai belemueh baju dia buat lap hinguih dia tu..ughhh

takdan makan lagi pun ubat baru beli tu, alih2 malam ni shahrin segar bugar & alhamdulillah sihat dah..dia dah pueh lena sehari hari ni, pukui brapa dia nak tidoq malam ni aku tatau la..layankan je la..

yang nak cerita sebenaqnya pasai aku tumpang penimbang kat klinik tu tadi. alamak, tak turun pun or maybe sebab ritu pakai penimbang len & so ada ralat la kut kaannnn.. <--ayat diri="" div="" nbsp="" pujuk="" sendiri="">

padahal

orang dah bagi supplement mahai2 suh aku diet, aku bantai gak makan macam tak diet, dah tu nak mai mana weight loss? tapi kan, memang la minum herbalife shake tu tak rasa sangat lapaq tapiiiiiii

panjang tapi tu, tapi aku ni jenis suka makan. i actually miss the eating, the smell of the food, the sight of the food & the taste tu lebih kurang la sebab balik2 pun lauk tu jugak, beli kat kedai tuuuu jugak (ayat tak pueh ati Ahmad asyik beli lauk sama..puih) & anak2 plak jenis makan skit dah tinggai, abih, takkan aku nak buang kut setengah pinggan yang depa tak abih tu, membazir plak jadinya (eceh alasan hahah)

walaupun aku sakit ati aritu makcik yang selalu mai mintak makanan kat cni tu cakap direct kat aku, "hang ni gemuk noo" macam baru tetiba hari tu dia perasan aku gemuk, padahal tak pueh ati la tu aku takdak apa nak bagi kat dia. dah namanya aku ni bukan jenis tukang masak, yang hang dok mai nak mintak segala bala tu apakehei??? pehtu dok kutuk2 aku plak..cam #ial!!

memang...dari dulu lagi orang suka kata kat aku, aku gemuk

ada kala aku nangis

ada kala aku gelak ja

tapi aku pun manusia

apa salah aku kat hangpa yang hangpa asyik nak mengata aku?

ada aku dok pi mintak makanan hangpa ka?

ada aku dok pi mintak duit kat hangpa ka?

ada aku langgaq hangpa ka? ya la kan, dah aku ni gemuk...mana celuih nak jalan

tapi tu la, kekuatan untuk berdiet tu selalu fail. walaupun mak baba dah habih rm2500 (actually depa share 17 tin shake yang depa beli tu dengan aku, sebab aku baru mula, depa bagi 3 tin dulu perisa lain2 so aku leh try, yang baki tu depa simpan la kat depa) aku tetap tak boleh nak diet.

aku suka makan!

huahuahua

p/s: la ni aku wat derk ja kat makcik tu, dia nak terasa ka apa ka lantak la..maleh dah aku nak layan

Hooo my...

Lamanya tak update blog..isyisyisy

tetiba bulan ni dapat rezeki datang berhantar..
my parents join herbalife (for real!) & telah bermurah hati kongsi 3 botol shakes with moi yg
mmg dr dulu lg obese

ye, saya obese

so?


semalam baru mula tapi malangnya i don't have penimbang
tatau la starting weight brapa tp awai bulan hari tu ada la timbang kat klinik

~ 85kg (lebih kurang la sbb naik penimbang & turun cepat2 sbb konon2 malu ahahahaha)


so, yesterday morning, mula dgn teh 400ml + shake perisa cappuccino 400ml

sepatutnya minum air 4.5L (2L from 8 - 12pm & the remainder tu smpi mlm la..)
gilo la nak ngabihkan 4.5L tp sebab panas..togok ayaq laju gak la, alhamdulillah

lepas minum shake semlm tu rasa over-hyper lak..
terlebih tenaga smpi keluaq rumah & menyangkul rumput + hack off lalang

see? rajin apa aku ni...muahahahahah

malam sepatutnya tak boleh makan apa2 except for fruits kalau lapaq sgt (aku kan breastfeeding..konon makan utk anak la ni muahahah lagi)
tapi semlm sebab kehyperan ada lagi, rajin plak dok cuci fridge & tau tau ja dah berjaya finish off a few left-over dishes (saki baki anak2 mkn tak abis..nak buang sayang..so simpan dlm fridge konon nak perangat bg depa makan balik..tak dapek la...)

pagi ni dah minum shake, skg tgh minum teh

that's all  

It just pisses me off!!

Saw a status update on FB this morning that really pisses me off.

A baby girl was left on the ground naked, expect for a batik which was used to wrap her in. Cried buckets when I first saw that picture. I thought the baby was dead.

Later, found more news on the baby in my newsfeed & seems that she is alive and well, alhamdulillah. Don't know the whole story yet but I bet more people will comment on it soon.

How could you? You MONSTER!!!!! How could you just throw away something so pure, so fragile, so tiny? She looked so perfect, just laying there on her side. She looked 'chubby' for a newborn baby, she could easily weigh 3.0kg or more.

Well, at least she is in the custody of the JPM now. Someone will love her. I know I do.

Belum cuba belum tahu kaannnn?

Tadi check email sebab tengah tunggu email dari Adik - dia selalu macam tu, dah lewat malam baru nak sibuk-sibuk suruh tolong buat apa-apa..baru nak email, nak esok, abih aku ni? jenuh la bersengkang mata, nak reject tak sampai hati...adehhhh- pastu nampak ada email dari Nuffnang.

Ada offer untuk sponsored post berkaitan diapers, tapi for 45 parents only.

Tetiba ja macam excited coz sebelum ni rasa macam tak pernah dapat email offering sponsored post macam ni. Tengok orang buat sponsored post tu banyak la & selalu gak terdetik, "Hmmm, macamana depa ni dapat offer to blog about certain things eh?" So now I know lah..heheh

Dah lama tak blogging kan. Bukan sebab busy siapkan projects pun. Busy catching up with my current life; 3 boys & 2 of them go to school. Rasa almost 3/4 of my time dihabiskan settling depa punya uniforms; basuh, iron, sediakan untuk the next day, etc. and checking homeworks, sharpening pencils/colour pencils, check buku2 skolah..heh..banyak kerja lah...

Anyways, just wanna say HI! before I go MIA again. heh.

BYE!

Bila usia semakin meningkat...

rasa macam cepat sangat nak terasa hati, kadang-kadang rasa macam orang lain tu asyik nak perlekehkan diri ni ja..

cepat sangat nak menitiskan air mata, contoh, tengok cerita downton abbey pun boleh nangis tersedu-sedu dek babak sedih seorang mak lepaskan anak dia untuk dijaga oleh tok & tok wan dia..

asyik kelebet muka kat cermin, walaupun sedar diri tak cantik tapi bila jerawat mula menjajah kembali setelah sekian lama menyepi, terasa 'risau' jugak..

TAPI


dengan usia jugak...


sedar banyak kesilapan diri dan mula mencari perubahan ke arah yang lebih baik, insya ALLAH..

semakin menghargai semua ujian dan musibah yang menimpa sebagai tanda kasih ALLAH yang mahu mendidik diri ini ke arah sifat rendah diri..

sedar bahawa mati itu pasti..


*sesi muhasabah diri*

2 sad news in one morning.

First sad news:

I sent Nazrin to kindy this morning and stopped at my favorite nasi lemak stall on the way home. While waiting for my nasi lemak to get wrapped, the owner told me that there has been an accident a few kilometers down the road that involves 2 motorcyclists. Her husband has gone there to help. I heard the siren of an ambulance just before we went out of the house this morning, so it must have been on its way to the site. When her husband came back, he told us that one of the victims has just given birth 19, people, 19!! days ago. She's practically still in her confinement period. She should have stayed home with her baby but she was on her way to send her older child to a kindy nearby when she collided with a man who was on his way to work. What really bugged me was the fact that the onlookers who were there said that her husband was asleep at home when this happened. ASLEEP???!!! I mean, come on! She gave birth to your child! Couldn't you have woken up & help send your other child to kindy for a minute?? Is that so hard to do?

Poor mommy...she could still be hurting down there from a normal birth since I know from experience that if she had a C-section, she wouldn't be riding a motorcycle this morning. Only 19 days ago. Poor baby too. 

Second sad news:   

Ok, this is not entirely a real life situation but the reality of it is very real. Really.

If you have ASTRO Diva (Channel 702) subscription, then, you would've seen the snippet for the next episode of Downton Abbey. Spoiler alert!

When I saw Sybil's husband standing by the window, holding a baby in his hand, and the narrator saying something about 'a joy turned into sorrow' or something, I knew Sybil would be in some kind of trouble. This morning, my favorite blogger confirmed it. Read it here. Sybil died during childbirth due to preeclampsia.

She, Cecily the blogger, not Sybil the character, went through this same problem with her last pregnancy that almost took her life. But sadly, she lost her twin due to complications brought on by preeclampsia. It is horrifying to think that 76, 000 women died of it in a year, even with the advances in medicine we have today. I am thankful that my 3 deliveries went well, my boys are healthy & I am still alive. 

Makes you wonder why, after all the hardship women go through to ensure the survival of the human race, couldn't men be nicer to us? 

Trippin' down memory lane.

Don't have much to say, I got stuck on something & a month later, I still can't shake it off. *sigh*

Now I know how Mak felt when Monster said those horrible things to her. Back then, I thought Mak was being overly dramatic but now I know.

Anyway, school term has entered its 3rd week & we've finally gotten into the groove. Things go smoother in the morning but you can still expect Shahrin to make me 'see red' some days. Just goes with the territory, I guess. 

Work-wise, I do have some projects lined up but they are still tentative ones. The clients have yet to confirm whether they are going to hire me or not, so, I've been pretty relaxed this month (if you rule out going from doing 1 load of laundry to 2 loads per day due to the additional uniforms worn by both brothers & getting Shahrin ready 2 times a day; regular school in the morning & religious school in the evening).

Talking about uniforms, I got a bit nostalgic a few times already while dealing with Shahrin's school uniform. Plus, I even got crazy memory flashes while putting the 'kapur kasut' (literally translated as whitewash for shoes?) on Shahrin's shoes. While washing Shahrin's white shirts, I'd think back to my mother who would often tackle the boatload of dirty laundries during the weekends. Back then, we had a semi-automatic washer but she would always have some clothes that she washes by hand. She had a few huge basins; plastic ones and a metal one that she still has today. I do remember helping her rinse a few loads in those basins, with the water pouring out of the pipe and me holding & rinsing one item at a time. Then, we'd wring out the water in the spin part of the washer. I remember going out during the afternoon (after finishing each load) and hanging them on the lines outside the house I was born in.

I also remember Mak ironing MY school uniforms & the ones that struck me the most are during the 5 years I had to stay at a boarding school. I remember reluctantly washing my uniform that has been washed & ironed by Mak when I have to return to school after the once per month weekends at home. I didn't want it to lose the smell & the crisp ironed look from home, buhuhu. Hahaha..this feeling lasted the whole time (5 years!) I had to stay at that boarding school especially after long school holidays. Ironing Shahrin's uniforms just brought back those bitter sweet memories.

As for his school shoes, I don't really remember when I started washing my shoes myself but I do still remember Mak teaching me how to put on the 'whitewash' (not sure if this is the correct word) shoe white on my shoes. Back then, the whitewash shoe white bottles had separate wands with the sponges but the one I recently bought was cleverly designed as one piece with the sponge on top. 

Found this pic here. See how old school these are? Hahah
Now I know they are called 'shoe whites'.

The one I bought is similar to this one, clever, no? :D

       

I kind of love getting Shahrin's school items ready for him, although I do realize that I have to teach him and let him take the responsibility soon. It's this thought that made me think back to my primary school days when I was 12years and below heheh. What I do remember is waking up and trying to take a bath with my eyes close (the water was super cold though which would instantly wake me up heheh), putting on my uniforms alongside my sisters, eating our breakfast which is almost always nasi lemak. I remember cycling in front of my brother before he had to attend boarding school (he's 3 years older than I am) and riding on my Baba's motorcycle with my sisters. I wondered how Mak managed to manage all of us even when she's busy with her own work (she's a retired teacher as my Baba). I only have to manage 2 boys but I struggled during the first 2 weeks. What's with the washing (whites with whites, colors in a different load, thus increasing my daily laundry load from just 1 to 2 per day), the ironing (2 sets of uniform each day plus Nazrin's uniform which I have to wash everyday since he only has 1 pair) and off course, the part where I have to remind Shahrin every other minute to;

                  take a bath, Shahrin!, 

                  hurry up, Shahrin!, 

                  wear your uniform, Shahrin! 

                  put on your shoes, Shahrin!

                  

                  HURRY UP, SHAHRIN!!!!!! 

Alhamdulillah, Nazrin practically readies himself in the mornings which gives me sooooo much joy. :D