Salam Aidil Adha buat semua..
hari ni masih pening-pening lalat, semalam kepala aku terantuk dekat cermin-pandang-belakang (rear view mirror) keta Wira yang baba aku baru (BARU! beli tapi 2nd hand ja pun keta tu) beli untuk adik aku.
kami eksiden semalam. 7 thn kawin, semlm kira 2nd time la eksiden bila travel dgn ahmad..1st time lum ada anak2, semlm lebih berdebar sbb ada anak2 dlm keta + aku duduk depan & pegang khairin
7 bijik keta terlibat dlm eksiden kui 9lbh semlm kat KM106.6 PLUS hala ke selatan (kami otw nak blk matang gerdu dah masa tu). tgh dok laju-laju tu tgk keta depan asyik brek-brek & dah slow keta tp tetap tak sempat nak elak ke kiri (kami kat lane kanan masa tu) sbb ada keta lain tgh laju dari kiri..
3 keta kat depan tu aku tak amik tau pun sbb jauh sgt nak jalan pi bertanya khabar..tapi driver keta yg plg depan tu ada la melawat tanah jajahan & mai sembang2 dgn kaki2 tarik, pekerja PLUS & peronda PLUS yg cepat sungguh sampai..
keta Wira yg ahmad bwk remuk sebelah kanan; lampu pecah abis & hood remuk while Toyota MPV (tak ingat nama dia) depan kami tu bumper kemek skit sebelah kiri..walaupun ada 7 keta waktu kejadian, pegawai penyiasat kemalangan tu kata kira 2 kes iaitu 4 keta depan 1 kes & kami, toyota & 4wheels depan toyota tu kira 1 kes lain. sebabnya 2 keta depan kami tu sempat brek & masing2 sepatutnya selamat takde apa2 tp sebab kena rempuh dr belakang dek ahmad brek tp terbabas jgk, kemek jgk la depan belakang toyota tu & 4wheels tu bengkok skit bumper besi dia..
apa yg sebenaqnya jadi kat keta plg depan tu pun aku tatau..yg aku tau, dok nampak dah keta2 depan kami asyik brek tp sbb brek tak cukup ruang (patutnya spacekan keta dgn keta depan sebanyak 3 bijik keta, kata peronda PLUS tu) tu yg terkena jugak..
nasib baik shahrin & nazrin duduk baik2 kat seat depa sbb before tu asyik berebut nak berdiri antara seat2 depan tu..kena jerkah dgn Ibu terus depa soksek2 nangis (nazrin la tu..manja dia) & duduk elok2 kat seat blkg..tatau la apa jadi kalau depa dok berdiri jugak kat tgh2 tu masa kejadian..melayang ke depan la jawabnya..
aku plak tak pakai seatbelt tapi sempat gak peluk khairin kuat2 smbl cuba elak ke kanan takut cermin pecah kena anak..mcmana aku bleh terinstictively pikiaq mcm tu pun tatau la tapi kira alhamdulillah semua org dlm keta kami selamat..keta2 yg lain pun takdak injuries sbb ambulan yg mai singgah sat ja pastu terus blah tanpa bawak patient..so kiranya kemalangan semlm tu just libatkan keta je la..
tunggu polis trafik mai amik gambaq apa smbl tunggu baba & my adik bongsu amik dekat kui 10lbh gak la w/pun jarak masa antara kena eksiden tu dgn depa (polis ronda + kaki2 tarik + pemilik2 keta) clear jalan tak sampai 15 minit pun.. efficient sungguh, maybe sbb selalu sgt dah handle pile-up mcm tu kan..yg aku plak sibuk dok awasi anak2 (giler tepi tu ada lurah turun yg agak curam sbb jadi area jambatan yg bwh dia ada jln ketapi) smpi tak amik gambaq apa satu pun..lgpun aku kan jakun skit..kamera fon ada tp sbb tak reti nak transfer ke lappy..jadi malas nak amik2 gambaq nih hahahah
then baba & adik mai angkut kami anakberanak pi IPD trafik kuala muda..kenangan gak la jap sbb aku spent 5 years belajaq kat Mad Jiwa so pekan Sg Petani tu aku kenai la..tp smlm tgk dah byk berubah..sayu pun ada..heheh..pehtu buang masa kat balai tu tunggu depa tukaq shift kui 12tgh mlm plak..sian anak2 pakat ngantuk except for shahrin yg lari sana sini mcm kena gula sekilo punya hyper dia..
mak ahmad pun mai..dia sanggup kluaq dr matang gerdu & pecut ke SP semata2 sbb ahmad call bgtau kami eksiden..padahal rmh baba aku lg dekat & depa pun dah smpi masa tu..logically, kami ikut baba la blk AS tapi sbb ahmad (dia kata mak dia yg nak mai jugak2..ntah la) nak blk cni jgk, so blk cni la kami smlm lepas siap buat repot kui 2 pagi..bayaq kompaun RM150 ja sbb dpt diskaun..sibbaik duit ada kat tgn masa tu..
pagi td follow-up dengan baba aku..dia kata settle kat luaq ja tak yah babit insurans..esok br nak update dgn driver2 depan kami yg kami ter'cium' tu..abg pemilik toyota tu nice sgt..very soft-spoken, bini dia pun ramah ja..tgk la esok brapa dia nak bg estimate kemek bumper keta dia..harap2 tak mahai sgt..sian baba baru je rabak RM18k beli keta wira tu cash..aku nak tlg bayaq dia kata tak payah..almaklumlah dia pun dok huloq2 jugak kat kami w/pun aku tak penah mintak..malu seh nak minta2k tp mak pesan bnyk kali, 'baba bagi duit ambik ja!' so aku amik la jugak bila dia bg duit..
rasa bersalah sgt2 w/pun niat kami baik..huhu..kepala aku sakit gak ni bila pegang..semalam tak rasa pun :(
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Thursday, October 18, 2012
BM entry: Kehilangan...
Pagi tadi (17hb/10 bersamaan 1 Zulhijjah) lebih kurang pukul 7.30 pagi, anak jiran sebelah telah meninggal dunia.
INNALILLAHIWAINNAILAIHIROJIUN....
Kita sedekahkan Al-Fatihah buat dia yer....
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Jiran tu dah dua kali kehilangan..kali pertama, anak dia yang sepatutnya jadi waris harta2 dia dan waris lelaki yang sepatutnya boleh jadi wali kat adik-beradik perempuan dia kalau ayah depa dah meninggal. Meninggal waktu budak tu bakal hadapi PMR plak tu. Pagi tadi plak, anak sulung dia yang dipanggil Ilahi akibat serangan asma.
Walaupun anak tu anak istimewa (dah 20tahun tapi pertumbuhan dia macam kanak-kanak ja) tapi tetap anak dan aku tumpang sedih untuk dia. Parents shouldn't have to bury their children.
Tadi, aku dah set dlm hati nak buat kerja tapi Khairin asyik terjaga ja. Dah nenen & tidoq pehtu tak sampai 20 minit dia bangun balik, nak nenen lagi. First 2 times tu ok lg tapi bila dah 3 4 kali, aku pun naik bebai. Sian budak kecik tu, Ibu marah dia...macam la dia paham..sedih sangat muka dia tadi lepas aku marah dia..Ni dia dah tidoq, aku plak dah hilang rasa nak buat keja, padahal 19hb ni dah due..aissyyy
Nyesal plak..tu la, org slalu cakap, sebagai Ibu kita tak boleh terlalu ikut perasaan & cakap yg bukan2 kat anak kita sbb takut ALLAH makbulkan. Percakapan seorang ibu tu bagai doa, kata org. Kadang2 aku sempat brenti & pikiaq dulu sebelum buat apa2 tapi selalunya terlalu ikut perasaan jugak. Ahmad ada tadi masa aku marah Khairin, baru lepas makan ikan kembung bakaq dlm oven. Maybe dia kesian kat aku (kut la heheh) or maybe sebab sebelum ni pun dah banyak kali aku bebel kat dia..so lepas makan terus dia tolong basuh pinggan mangkuk dalam sinki. Aku ni malam malas dah nak main ayaq, sejuk tangan, kebas jari dari time lepas bersalin Shahrin pun tak hilang2 lagi (6 thn dah ni jari2 aku kebas semcm..huhu) takkan nak cari pasal main ayaq sejuk2 plak malam2 kan. Alhamdulillah la Ahmad tlg basuh dah..esok kurang 1 box to tick off my to-do list utk esok.
Kadang2, sambil duduk layan anak2 makan ka, tgk TV ka (time tak bizi writing la) aku berdoa dalam hati.. "Ya ALLAH, jangan Kau ambil anak2 ini dari aku Ya ALLAH, tak tertanggung rasanya kalau depa tak dak, aku sayang anak2 aku Ya ALLAH.."
Walaupun kena marah mcmana pun, yang nak memujuk tu Ibu la jugak. Macam pagi td, masa aku bangun Subuh, Nazrin bangun & merengek nak yang tu yang ni, nak susu la, nak tidoq atas katil la (dia tidoq dlm ndui@buai) nak tidoq ndui balik la..aku ni bebai la..kang satgi Khairin jaga kalau bising2..sudahnya aku pi marah dia sampai dia lari keluaq nangis tersedu2 kat luaq bilik..dia ni Drama king sikit, merajuk guling2 atas lantai, main lari2 sana sini konon nak aku pi pujuk dia...aku malas nak layan & terus landing balik atas katil nak tidoq blk before kena bangun untuk hantaq Shahrin pi skolah. Waaa waaa budak tu tunggu melalak, last2 aku jugak yang bangun pi amik dia & peluk dia..terus diam..see..w/pun aku yg marah, aku jugak la yg pujuk..kalau aku tak pujuk pun, selalunya depa akan mai jugak kat aku nak suruh aku pujuk...haiiii la anak2..sian hangpa dapat Ibu garang..
Macam baby Adam dalam FB tu, aku slalu tak gamak nak baca update dia..tambah lagi tgk gambaq dia, nampak ja title kat status update ada Adam tu, terus aku scroll down cepat2..bukan apa..dia dgn Khairin sama umoq, beza 15 hari ja, kalau tak salah aku, dia brain damage sbb masa delivery, his oxygen supply was cut-off. Nak tau apa sebenaqnya jadi kat dia google la sendiri yer...yang paling buat aku sedih tu, Khairin pun masa delivery APGAR score dia rendah, he wasn't breathing..unresponsive..tak nangis pun..aku tak la risau sgt masa tu sbb Dr. yg mai cakap kat aku tu relax ja, like he was confident anak aku ok..lain la kalau dia mai cerita kat aku dgn muka serius or gila belabah, memang aku melalak dah la waktu tu..
Alhamdulillah, sehari ja dia kat NICU under observation. Duduk seminggu kat Hsptl Taiping pun sbb dia demam, infection maybe dr tempat depa cucuk jarum tu..Now do you see why aku tak sanggup follow FB Adam? terasa sgt mcm aku terlepas ujian yg sama..tatau la apa akan jadi kat kami kalau Khairin yg kena mcm Adam kena..Nauzubillah Min Zalik...
INNALILLAHIWAINNAILAIHIROJIUN....
Kita sedekahkan Al-Fatihah buat dia yer....
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Jiran tu dah dua kali kehilangan..kali pertama, anak dia yang sepatutnya jadi waris harta2 dia dan waris lelaki yang sepatutnya boleh jadi wali kat adik-beradik perempuan dia kalau ayah depa dah meninggal. Meninggal waktu budak tu bakal hadapi PMR plak tu. Pagi tadi plak, anak sulung dia yang dipanggil Ilahi akibat serangan asma.
Walaupun anak tu anak istimewa (dah 20tahun tapi pertumbuhan dia macam kanak-kanak ja) tapi tetap anak dan aku tumpang sedih untuk dia. Parents shouldn't have to bury their children.
Tadi, aku dah set dlm hati nak buat kerja tapi Khairin asyik terjaga ja. Dah nenen & tidoq pehtu tak sampai 20 minit dia bangun balik, nak nenen lagi. First 2 times tu ok lg tapi bila dah 3 4 kali, aku pun naik bebai. Sian budak kecik tu, Ibu marah dia...macam la dia paham..sedih sangat muka dia tadi lepas aku marah dia..Ni dia dah tidoq, aku plak dah hilang rasa nak buat keja, padahal 19hb ni dah due..aissyyy
Nyesal plak..tu la, org slalu cakap, sebagai Ibu kita tak boleh terlalu ikut perasaan & cakap yg bukan2 kat anak kita sbb takut ALLAH makbulkan. Percakapan seorang ibu tu bagai doa, kata org. Kadang2 aku sempat brenti & pikiaq dulu sebelum buat apa2 tapi selalunya terlalu ikut perasaan jugak. Ahmad ada tadi masa aku marah Khairin, baru lepas makan ikan kembung bakaq dlm oven. Maybe dia kesian kat aku (kut la heheh) or maybe sebab sebelum ni pun dah banyak kali aku bebel kat dia..so lepas makan terus dia tolong basuh pinggan mangkuk dalam sinki. Aku ni malam malas dah nak main ayaq, sejuk tangan, kebas jari dari time lepas bersalin Shahrin pun tak hilang2 lagi (6 thn dah ni jari2 aku kebas semcm..huhu) takkan nak cari pasal main ayaq sejuk2 plak malam2 kan. Alhamdulillah la Ahmad tlg basuh dah..esok kurang 1 box to tick off my to-do list utk esok.
Kadang2, sambil duduk layan anak2 makan ka, tgk TV ka (time tak bizi writing la) aku berdoa dalam hati.. "Ya ALLAH, jangan Kau ambil anak2 ini dari aku Ya ALLAH, tak tertanggung rasanya kalau depa tak dak, aku sayang anak2 aku Ya ALLAH.."
Walaupun kena marah mcmana pun, yang nak memujuk tu Ibu la jugak. Macam pagi td, masa aku bangun Subuh, Nazrin bangun & merengek nak yang tu yang ni, nak susu la, nak tidoq atas katil la (dia tidoq dlm ndui@buai) nak tidoq ndui balik la..aku ni bebai la..kang satgi Khairin jaga kalau bising2..sudahnya aku pi marah dia sampai dia lari keluaq nangis tersedu2 kat luaq bilik..dia ni Drama king sikit, merajuk guling2 atas lantai, main lari2 sana sini konon nak aku pi pujuk dia...aku malas nak layan & terus landing balik atas katil nak tidoq blk before kena bangun untuk hantaq Shahrin pi skolah. Waaa waaa budak tu tunggu melalak, last2 aku jugak yang bangun pi amik dia & peluk dia..terus diam..see..w/pun aku yg marah, aku jugak la yg pujuk..kalau aku tak pujuk pun, selalunya depa akan mai jugak kat aku nak suruh aku pujuk...haiiii la anak2..sian hangpa dapat Ibu garang..
Macam baby Adam dalam FB tu, aku slalu tak gamak nak baca update dia..tambah lagi tgk gambaq dia, nampak ja title kat status update ada Adam tu, terus aku scroll down cepat2..bukan apa..dia dgn Khairin sama umoq, beza 15 hari ja, kalau tak salah aku, dia brain damage sbb masa delivery, his oxygen supply was cut-off. Nak tau apa sebenaqnya jadi kat dia google la sendiri yer...yang paling buat aku sedih tu, Khairin pun masa delivery APGAR score dia rendah, he wasn't breathing..unresponsive..tak nangis pun..aku tak la risau sgt masa tu sbb Dr. yg mai cakap kat aku tu relax ja, like he was confident anak aku ok..lain la kalau dia mai cerita kat aku dgn muka serius or gila belabah, memang aku melalak dah la waktu tu..
Alhamdulillah, sehari ja dia kat NICU under observation. Duduk seminggu kat Hsptl Taiping pun sbb dia demam, infection maybe dr tempat depa cucuk jarum tu..Now do you see why aku tak sanggup follow FB Adam? terasa sgt mcm aku terlepas ujian yg sama..tatau la apa akan jadi kat kami kalau Khairin yg kena mcm Adam kena..Nauzubillah Min Zalik...
Sunday, October 14, 2012
5 reasons why I'm not a famous blogger!
disclaimer: just in case you're wondering, I'm not whining or complaining, I'm just making fun of myself heheh
1- I'm no camwhore nor do I like taking pictures. This fact is evident in the absence of pictures in my posts. Hahahha. Sometimes, when I pull out my Galaxy Y and get the camera ready to take a picture, I'd somehow would feel embarrassed and refrain myself from snapping gazillion pictures of my boys. (I'm too old & not so cute anymore for pictures plus Ahmad never wants to take MY pictures :p).
2- My posts are not very informational and just mundane. I'm not a foodie & I don't have a passion for cooking, so I can't review restaurants or post new recipes. I don't travel much, my 'traveling' only involves me driving Shahrin to preschool every morning & the occasional quick trip to the mini mart. I don't have a blogshop although I'm supposed to be promoting Bling Buubies Nursing Kurung (Damn! I knew I forgot something important).So, what's left to write about? Who would want to read about Ahmad & me fighting every other day, right? Hahah.
3- Some days I would get stuck on how to begin writing about something for so long that the inspiration just evaporates into thin air, leaving my blog bare. Or I would begin writing and then I'd read through what I've written then edit them then edit them then edit them...you get my point.
4- I enjoy reading other people's blog too much to spend time to blog on mine!
5- Err...there's no 5th reason. Hahah.
-edited- I'm not a famous blogger becauuussseeeee....famous bloggers blog everyday or as often as they can, with pictures and how-to lists and (insert number here) things you need to know about (insert info here) and places they've been to and food they've eaten and things they're selling. Me? Err...I think I'll just maintain my usual low profile self hahah.
1- I'm no camwhore nor do I like taking pictures. This fact is evident in the absence of pictures in my posts. Hahahha. Sometimes, when I pull out my Galaxy Y and get the camera ready to take a picture, I'd somehow would feel embarrassed and refrain myself from snapping gazillion pictures of my boys. (I'm too old & not so cute anymore for pictures plus Ahmad never wants to take MY pictures :p).
2- My posts are not very informational and just mundane. I'm not a foodie & I don't have a passion for cooking, so I can't review restaurants or post new recipes. I don't travel much, my 'traveling' only involves me driving Shahrin to preschool every morning & the occasional quick trip to the mini mart. I don't have a blogshop although I'm supposed to be promoting Bling Buubies Nursing Kurung (Damn! I knew I forgot something important).So, what's left to write about? Who would want to read about Ahmad & me fighting every other day, right? Hahah.
3- Some days I would get stuck on how to begin writing about something for so long that the inspiration just evaporates into thin air, leaving my blog bare. Or I would begin writing and then I'd read through what I've written then edit them then edit them then edit them...you get my point.
4- I enjoy reading other people's blog too much to spend time to blog on mine!
5- Err...there's no 5th reason. Hahah.
-edited- I'm not a famous blogger becauuussseeeee....famous bloggers blog everyday or as often as they can, with pictures and how-to lists and (insert number here) things you need to know about (insert info here) and places they've been to and food they've eaten and things they're selling. Me? Err...I think I'll just maintain my usual low profile self hahah.
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
What if...?
Sometimes I wonder,
"What if I had gone to a different school?" or
"What if I had chosen a different course for my degree after finishing my matriculation?" or
"What if I didn't listen to my mother & insist on doing what I want?"
*sigh*
I'm currently working on writing an article for a client. While surfing the net for info, I couldn't help but think "Thank you, ALLAH for this gift of writing". At least I do have a marketable skill that I can use to support my family. I wonder if my life would've been different if I had taken an English language-related course instead of pursuing a Chem. Eng. course.
Well, like they say, "Don't cry over spilled milk".
Back to writing......
p/s: writing at this hour does not suit me...I'm feeling sleepy already *yawn*
"What if I had gone to a different school?" or
"What if I had chosen a different course for my degree after finishing my matriculation?" or
"What if I didn't listen to my mother & insist on doing what I want?"
*sigh*
I'm currently working on writing an article for a client. While surfing the net for info, I couldn't help but think "Thank you, ALLAH for this gift of writing". At least I do have a marketable skill that I can use to support my family. I wonder if my life would've been different if I had taken an English language-related course instead of pursuing a Chem. Eng. course.
Well, like they say, "Don't cry over spilled milk".
Back to writing......
p/s: writing at this hour does not suit me...I'm feeling sleepy already *yawn*
Monday, October 1, 2012
Busting out the bigger clothes.
I was finally able to rummage through my storage boxes this morning for 6 - 12 month baby clothes. Khairin is already too big for the hand-me-down teeny tiny new-born baby clothes. This would be the 4th time I did something like this; store away new-born/3-6 mo clothes and take out bigger ones. The first 2 times was with Nazrin, so today is Khairin's turn. I usually store away booties, mittens, swaddles and other new-born paraphernalia when my confinement period is over because I'm lazy like that. Bigger clothes for 0-6 mo are usually stored away only when my babies got too big for them. My babies are all on the smallish side of the spectrum, that's why I always wait until they really fill in their clothes (I'd still wait even if the clothes are labeled as 0-3 month but they can still wear it when they are already 5 months old) before buying/taking out bigger ones.
Shahrin was the lucky one, he got all brand new clothes when he was a baby. Then, when his clothes began to look too snug for comfort, we bought bigger clothes for him, plus a few hands-me-down from our neighbor. I didn't know what to do with the smaller clothes at first because we didn't have any cabinet space for them. Then, I found a blog with organizing tips, from it I learned that I should keep them in an air tight container for use with future babies. So, I bought a plastic storage box and began sorting through Shahrin's baby clothes and carefully stored them in it. I didn't put any mothballs in, hate the smell but so far (it's been 6 years now) my baby clothes are well stored with no smell, infestations or decay.
6 years later plus 2 more babies, my storage system has grown into 3 more plastic storage boxes. These boxes are stacked one on top of the other in a corner of our bedroom. It is a good storage system since it allows me to easily store and take out baby clothes (plus my preggy blouses) without having to buy new dressers plus I can save space. The number of clothes; new-born, toddler, big boy has certainly grown over the years thanks to our neighbor and our families who gave new and used clothes to us. Of course, we've also bought new clothes for Nazrin and Khairin since we didn't feel it was fair not to buy them new clothes as well.
After 3 kids, I no longer feel nostalgic when the time comes to make the transition from new born clothes to bigger ones. I didn't hold up a onesie and hug it close to my heart or place it close to my nose to sniff the baby smell on it, heh. I didn't waste 15 minutes just lovingly stroking the cute matching T-shirt and shorts with a baby lion on it. I didn't stop and stare in wonder at how tiny 0-6mo clothes are compared to 6-12mo clothes. And off course I didn't just sat there and reminisce about how cute Khairin looked in the pair of purple shorts. Heh heh heh.
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