Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Upcycled black tank top: Cute tote.

As usual, I'm not trying to present a tutorial but just showing what I did with this tank top.
This is another simple upcycle project to turn something I can't use into something I love.

The tank top in its original condition sans the bra straps that
I've taken out before taking this picture.
 The finished project!
Doesn't it look pretty? It took me only half a day* to turn the tank top into this tote.
Unfortunately, I don't have a handy strap to go with it. Luckily, I found the black
luggage straps among my trash stash and decided to use it with this tote.

 Basically, all I did was sew in the polka dotted gross grain ribbon across the top part of the tank top and downwards through its center. I bought the ribbon from Cintahati Craft along with some felt, more ribbons, a magnetic sheet and buttons that I have yet to use. *sigh* Next, I sewed close the bottom part of the tank top and sewed the corners into smallish triangles.  

Up close and personal.
Remember that fabric flower from my previous post? I made felt leaves to go along with it. 
I know I made more than 1 flower but when I tried putting on all 3 of them on the tote, they looked so crowded. That's why I only sewed on 1 flower here as embellishment. 

Oh, btw, do you notice the buttons along the top part? I saw Shahrin playing with them and putting them onto the ribbon just like that while I was still deciding on what to do with the tote. His inspirational idea made him really proud when I showed him what I did, hehe. 

On a totally unrelated note, can't wait for Thursday to come. I have a date with baby in my tummy!!! Maybe I'll use this new tote for my next visit to the doctor. Mmmm can't wait to see baby. hehehe..

* half a day to sew and finish up the tote but 3 days to find the right handle/straps for it. Actually, I haven't decided if I want it to be a cross-body bag or just a tote, if you notice the 2nd and 3rd picture. 
What do you think? 

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Fabric flowers inspired.

I found some fabric scrap in Ahmad's bundle of 2nd-hand shirts. And since I had more time on my hand with Shahrin not around, I was inspired to make some fabric flowers. For a detailed tutorial, please visit Creation Corner.

 I started by making 5 fabric circles. I know that in the tutorial she used 6 
but I liked it better with just 5 'petals'.
 Following the instructions, I folded one circle into half.
 Then, folded it half again.
 I skipped showing the threading part but basically what I did was the same as in the tutorial.
Here's the finished flowers. The top one has 6 petals and the bottom only has 5. 
I liked 5 petals better so I made 2 more '5-petal flowers' using the same scrap of fabric.

 These flowers are used in another project which will be revealed soon
 (since Shahrin is already back home & I have my hands full now heheh).


Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Mixed emotions.

First off, Shahrin's been kidnapped, AGAIN! Ughhh..how I hate knowing that he's there with Ahmad's mother, far away from me. HATE HATE HATE!!!!

I'm seething right now, can you tell?

Not just because she took Shahrin with her for a 2nights sleepover, it's also because she told me something that would have every mom clutching her heart with fear.

She had a little chitchat with our neighbor before she went back to her house in Taiping. That neighbor told her that Shahrin & Nazrin wandered around her house one day with no supervision (read: I wasn't there with them). Unluckily, her house is right beside the main road, so their unsupervised walk caused a bruhaha at her house. She shooed them home right away when she saw that they were playing alone.

When I heard this story, what came to mind was fear, anger and bafflement. Fear for my sons, of what could have happened to them should they wander onto the road. Anger at her for directing that tone of hers that I hate so much when she didn't even ask me for my side of the story. Bafflement plus anger at the story and Ahmad because as far as I am concern, I've never let them out of the house if Ahmad's not outside or if I couldn't go out with them or our neighbors are not around. Usually, the boys would play outside when our neighbor's grandkids are outside too or her sister-in-law's children are there as well. (The neighbor's house is in front, her SIL's at the back and the house we live in is beside theirs) So, how could it be that the boys had wandered so far to the front that nobody noticed??

I'm still seething. At myself, at Ahmad's mother, at Ahmad.

Did she really expect me to follow along with the boys wherever they go? Given my current condition?? It's always like this with her. She's quick to point fingers, to place blame. These are exactly why I hate her so much. Plus, she'd always put the blame on me coz she dare not anger Ahmad lest he bail out on her. While we're at it, where was Ahmad when this happened? He's always outside, chatting the day away with his pals. Why weren't he there when the boys wandered that far??

I know I'm partly to blame but damn it! I'm still angry at them both for different reasons.

And she had the galls to take Shahrin along to her house when she knows bloody well I don't like it when she does! UGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Inspired..

I love, love, love reading Cecily's blog at Uppercase Woman.
Today I read this post which is such a beautiful and heartwarming post.
She is the most soulful when she reminisce about her childhood and her struggle through the hard years spent being poor. Most touching are stories about how she coped with the death of her twin babies due to complications during pregnancy. Though I have no personal experience with pro-life or pro-choice, I am thankful for my two relatively easy pregnancy and birth with the boys. Hopefully this one will be easy as well.

Another blogger I once lost and have recently found again is Ellie at One Crafty Mother.
If I was ever an alcoholic (and THANK YOU ALLAH I am a muslim, thus forbidden to ever touch it), her recovery stories are inspirational, kind and soulful. Even if you're not an alcoholic, her recovery stories do still touch at the very basic of human feelings. They help you accept your current situation and nudge you towards a better change. Plus, she is a very talented crafter who sell exceptional jewelries she made herself. I started reading her blog because I wanted to join in her monthly giveaways but got hooked on her stories instead. Unfortunately, after losing her URL and finding it again after so long, I found out that she has been tested yet again. This time with cancer in her neck. Such a brave woman, to have survived alcoholism, now having to face cancer. Please do stop by and send her kind words. Ironically, as another reader posted on her comments section, people read her posts and left comments with the intention of supporting her and giving her strength to endure this trial, but I agree with that other reader. I leave her blog feeling her strength and supported BY her instead.    

These are writers whom I inspire to be. I wish I know how to tap into my brain and pull out such eloquent words and quotable quotes. They write what they know and they certainly know more about life and living it than I do.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Do you lie? I do...

Small lies.
White lies.
Lies of omission.
'Selective misrepresentation'.

You know, these kind of lies.

Why do I do it?
Because I find it easier to do than telling the truth.
Because I want to save face.
Because I don't have anything interesting to tell.
Because I can't stand the person I'm talking to.
Because I don't want to be judged.
Because I don't want to hurt anybody's feelings.
Because...
Just because...


How about you?
Why do you do it?

Sunday, December 4, 2011

The Boys.


I haven't done this in a long while. I used to do a monthly update when Shahrin was still a baby but I didn't do the same for Nazrin, what a pity. So, today I think I'm going to do an update for both boys.

Firstly, my first born, Shahrin.
Well, he is quite a handful, let me tell you. One minute he is as docile as a sleeping kitten and the next, he'd be running all over the place like a cheetah on caffeine. Most of the time, he'd be watching cartoons and laughing along to GOD knows what. p/s: he used to watch ASTRO Channel 613 which is full of educational programs but these days, he'd watch Channel 616, non-stop if I let him. I don't quite like the programs on that channel e.g. Tom & Jerry, Pink Panther, Courage the cowardly dog to name a few. The first two shows kept showing repetitive actions of falling down, getting hit, getting pranked again and again while in Courage, 'stupid dog!' is said over and over. Ughhh.. Sometimes I can get him to change channels but most of the time, he'd be stuck on 616 all day long. Anyways, he is officially off diapers even at night since last month. It started quite by accident when I forgot to buy his size when we went shopping & he couldn't fit into Nazrin's diaper. so, we went cold turkey on him and I had to wake up every 3 hours and persuade him to go to the toilet, lest he pees on the bed. It was hard work the whole week when we decided that since it worked well the first night, why not continue with it? I practically had to set an alarm just in case I slept the night through. All in all, I don't have to wake him up to pee anymore because he finally get the point of waking up when he needed to go. So, we have successfully weaned Shahrin off of his diapers. Yeah, at 5 years old. Lame huh? Other than that, he is getting better at listening to instructions and doing as he is told. He knows a little bit about addition and subtraction. His spelling still needs more work, so he still can't read on his own. He is also very possessive with his toys. We've had countless fights over toys in this house to the point where I am willing to throw away everything out just to stop them from fighting. All in all, I think Shahrin is just being a growing up boy, learning my buttons and knowing which one to push but sometimes can melt my heart with a simple kiss.

Nazrin, my second boy.
Now this boy is quite the opposite of his brother. He does everything fast and with a I-can-do-it-myself attitude. He eats a lot (Shahrin is a very picky-eater) and always want to feed himself. He learns to do things faster compared to when Shahrin was his age. Maybe it's because he has a role model to look up to or maybe since he was born with no complications like we had with Shahrin. Although he is still small compared to other children his age, I no longer worry to much about it since he eats well and active. He is quite the copy-cat. He'd watch his brother play (anything) for a while and the moment he gets a turn, he'd play it the same way he saw his brother did. Also quite by accident, Nazrin is off diapers too!!! I still have some of his diapers but since he doesn't seem to need them, I haven't make him wear them about the same time we weaned Shahrin off. I usually put his diaper on after he had fallen asleep but with having to wake up to tend to Shahrin, I somehow forgot to put one on Nazrin. But after 2 nights of keeping dry till morning, I decided that Nazrin can manage his bladder well even at night. So, now we have managed to save money on diapers, alhamdulillah. Heheh. 

There you go. A summary of what my boys are doing these days. Ahhh..can't wait for the baby to come out though. With everything that's going on these days, I have a strong feeling that it could be a girl! Uuuuu..the nice dresses I can buy, with bows and laces and ribbons..heheheh. 

Have a nice day guys!      

Friday, December 2, 2011

To: AM

Dear AM,

Missing you so much these days. What happened? You kind of dropped of the face of the earth and you leave me floundering alone. I need you back in my life. Please. Come home to me.

You know, maybe it's hormonal, maybe it's all in my head but lately, I keep feeling like my life is dripping through my fingers, like sand and no matter how hard I clench my fingers, I still can't stop the flow. Patching things up is not helping either. New holes keep popping up and I just can't keep up.

AM honey,

I need your strength, your courage and your intelligence. Please come back to me. I need a shoulder to cry on. Just the other day, while folding Shahrin's sleeveless shirt, I kept staring at that little hole in the back. Maybe some insect ate it, maybe just because it's an old shirt but that little hole made me howl. I can't even buy my son a new shirt! Maybe mak was right, hell, she's always right. But as they say, 'Don't cry over spilled milk'. So why am I crying over a little hole in my son's shirt?

TB kept coming back here last month. I hated the way I feel around her because I know that I am not that kind of person. I hate my hatred. I hate the way TB can disrupt my life just by coming here. Why aren't YOU here? I know I shouldn't allow my hatred for TB rule my life but it seems like I am not getting rid of that monster anytime soon. 'Forgive and forget?' BAH!! How can I forgive if I can't forget?

My darling,

I have no one to blame but myself. Can I partially blame you though? You're my only confidant, yet you leave me in my time of need. How did this happen? Was it something I did? You know, this time around I feel like nothing I do is ever good enough. Especially around Ahmad. I keep wondering what's going on in his head. I haven't been a very good wife lately, I let the house get messy, the sink filled up with dirty dishes, unfolded clothes in the basket. I yell at my boys a lot. I don't give a damn with how I look anymore. I kept thinking, does he love me the way I still love him?

Here I go again. Bawling. I'm such a wuss these days. Told you I need you back in my life. When are you coming back?

Love,
Me.




Tuesday, November 22, 2011

I was bored so I made these felt flowers.

The Three Flowers.
I made these out of felt that I bought a looooooooong time ago but didn't have time to do anything with them, until recently. These two at the bottom were just circles in decreasing diameters, stacked one on top of the other. The bigger yellow one was easy to make since I just fold them in half 3 times to make those slits. The smaller one was harder since I had to make square cuts to achieve that effect. I was just fooling around when I decided to make the square cuts but I liked how they looked the first time I did them, so why not make more, right? Hehe. To bind them all together, I just used buttons. I wanted to put 2 leaves at the back but I don't have green felt, so at the moment, they are KIVed till later (or never from the look of things these days *sigh*)
Deformed felt flower?
 This yellow and orange 'flower-like' felt creation was actually meant to be something else but it didn't work out the way I wanted it. I had to improvise and in the end, I turned it into a stuffed flower with a yellow patch, for added effect. I had an extra button, so that went on too. Since it didn't look like a flower, I decided to make it a fridge-magnet. I had a sheet of A4 magnet from the same purchase I made a long time ago and I decided to use it.
This is how it looks like at the back, with the magnet.

Here it is with its FM buddy, on my fridge.
That's all the creative energy I have for now. Till it strikes again.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Carpe diem!

Ughhh...

My life is so boring!
I wake up, feed the boys (usually just one boy) and myself, do the dishes, do the laundry, give the boys their baths, sweep the floor (sometimes), socialize with the neighbor (rarely), watch TV (most of the time), break up fights, stare at my lappy, complete my part-time projects, pick Ahmad's zits, hide in my room whenever TB is around, fold laundry (only when the basket is overflowing), eat, pee, poop, cry, sleep, yawn, burp, fart, get angry, get frustrated, get irritated, get bored.


Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Errrrrr......

I don't know whether I should be glad/happy/ecstatic or concerned.

It's about Ahmad. He's behaving very peculiar lately. Some of the things he's been doing without my asking:

1- Wash the dishes.
2- Giving the boys bath, wash their poop.
3- Tidy up the house! (this is the most recent one)

and although I know what I know is kind of invading his privacy, he's been;

4- Deleting all the SMSes in his inbox and sent folders.

This last part is what's been bothering me the most. He's never done this before. We've always been open with each other and sometimes he'd read my SMSes and I'd read his. Lately, he deletes everything in his message folders, making me suspicious. Add this to the above items. Wouldn't you feel the same way?

Or maybe it's just my imagination running wild. Maybe it's just because of my pregnancy. I know I have let the house fall apart since getting pregnant. Maybe it's just his way of helping me out (though he'd never do any of these during my last 2 pregnancies) and showing me that he cares.

Malays do have several 'old wives tales' regarding guessing a baby's gender during a pregnancy. I bet everyone around the world have one but I'm kind of lazy to google them. Anyway, when comparing my previous experiences with this one, I can honestly say that it is very different. This time around, I suffered horrible morning sickness and extreme fatigue, which I didn't have with the boys. Everyone keep telling me this one is sure to be a girl because of these differences. So maybe Ahmad's change of attitude has something to do with it too, right? Heheh...wishful thinking on my part.

Anyway, I AM glad that Ahmad's been helping out a lot these days. Makes me love him a little bit more! <3

Sunday, November 13, 2011

School holidays are coming.


OMG!!!!

The year 2010 is almost over! How time flies when you're busy blaming everyone else for your crappy life.

By this time next week, Shahrin will be home 24/7 since his pre-school closes during school holidays. I need to prepare a schedule for us all, so that we won't be stuck in front of the TV 24/7, like what we've been doing all year long. *sigh*

And with the coming holidays, my biggest fear also looms closer. Ahmad's mom has been saying over and over that she'd want to take Shahrin to KL with her when school's out. Like "NO WAY IN H**L!!!!!!!" am I going to let her take him away again! Ughhhh!

One more worry of mine is what am I going to do about my confinement period next year? With the boys, I've had 2 different experiences; with Shahrin, I had to stay here for the duration of my confinement since I need to be close to my son, who was kept in NICU for almost a month. I hated it here.

With Nazrin, I had the choice of going back home to my parents. I liked staying home with them heheh. Unfortunately, this time around, Shahrin will be going to kindergarten since Ahmad and I decided that he should have at least experience school for one year before enrolling for Year 1 when he's 7 years old. If we continue to send him to his pre-school (day-care-center), he wouldn't know the kind of structure required for school. So, if he goes to kindergarten, I have to stay here since I DO NOT want to leave him here alone with Ahmad (not the most reliable parent *sigh*) or worse with his mother!

I know it's still a long way away till my due date but things like these have to be meticulously planned. Yeah right.

Well, I actually wanted to write a post about Shahrin's convocation from yesterday but think I'll save it for later. I still need to transfer the photos from my phone to this lappy. Toddles for now!

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Sometimes...

Sometimes I am content with my life.
Sometimes I wish my life is a different one.

Sometimes I feel like a complete failure.
Sometimes I think I do alright.

Sometimes I hate my husband.
Sometimes I hate myself more.

Sometimes I wish my boys would just leave me alone.
Sometimes I wonder what goes through their minds.

Sometimes I regret the choices I made.
Sometimes I wonder if I would have chosen differently.

Sometimes......

Friday, October 28, 2011

S.E.D.I.H.

SHAHRIN DAH DI KIDNAP OLEH MAK AHMAD...

SESUATU YG AKU AMAT TAKUTKAN TELAH TERJADI.....

LAMBAT LG DIA NAK BLK CNI.....WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IBU RINDU SHAHRIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Relief....

Remember what happened to me 2 weeks ago?
I had such a bad stomach pain, similar to the pain I experienced when I had the ectopic pregnancy.
After seeing the doctor that day, the pain persisted for 3 more days but less intense (or maybe that's just because of the paracetamol he gave me).
Then, the week after that, I had a bout of diarrhea and vomiting, from morning till late at night.
I couldn't keep anything down. The minute I'd finish eating (I couldn't even finish them), I threw up, followed by having to go to the toilet. I wanted to see a doctor that day but Ahmad was busy with something else and I didn't have the energy to drive by myself. So, I just prayed that it was just something I ate the day before and nothing serious.
Luckily, I felt better the next day, so we didn't see the doctor at all.

BUT...

A feeling lingered in me.
Nothing serious, just a fleeting thought.

I  didn't say anything about it to Ahmad.
I was worried about it though.

Fortunately, today, my fear has been lifted. Alhamdulillah!
I went for my routine check at my local clinic and the scan showed that my baby is well and kicking!
What a relief.

Now I am able to write about it.

After the abdominal pain, I googled the symptoms and had a few hits on preeclampsia. I read through them and I learned that:
        i) high blood pressure
        ii) protein in urine
        iii) swelling in the hands, feet or face
        iv) upper abdominal pain or chest pain or back pain
        v) breathlessness

are some of the signs and symptoms of preeclampsia. Although I found these signs worrying, I tried to keep calm since the doctor already told me that it was nothing. But the vomiting and diarrhea made me even more worried. I couldn't shake the feeling of impending doom.

I was worried that my baby has died and I didn't even know it. I googled just now. These came up. It was a scary read. Thank GOD it didn't happen.


Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Getting back in the groove...

I've finished one assignment, got 4 more to go.
The first one should have been easy, actually it was easy but my mind made it complicated.
I kept second-guessing myself while i was writing it because i kept thinking back to that time when i took that business writing course.

I kept thinking, "No, this is not good enough..", "I probably should write it this way..no..I should write it like this..", "Wait..this is not working..."

I kept thinking back to that girl who is 10 years younger than me. She was my classmate and she always get high marks for her writings. I've read through a few of her work and I have to admit, she has some pretty good contents.

Well, I've submitted that assignment anyway, so, no use worrying about it now coz I have one more of the same assignment to do. Just have to pick a different topic.

Wish me luck!

Friday, October 21, 2011

Forcing myself to post!

*sigh*

I've been wanting to post since....my last post but every time I log into my blog, clicked on the 'new post' icon, my mind would go blank. Or one of my boys would call me, to do something with him. Or Ahmad would need help finding something (as always...). Or something...you know?

Well, anyway, I am forcing myself to actually write something, anything today because I pity my blog. Not that I have lots of visitors here (Hai Aina!!! I see you!! hahaha) but it is nice to know that some of my friends still stop by to read it (Hai Adik! Zarin! Azza! -name-dropping- but who cares, right? hehe).

I can honestly say that I really envy writers who really depend on their writing for a living. Because if I were to be in their shoes, I'd long be booted out of the publisher's list for not writing anything in a very a long time.

I, however, have been busy proofreading a thesis and writing a few articles of my own, as a ghost-writer, that is. The thesis is done, I'm just waiting for the payment to come through before emailing it to its writer. The articles are in progress and I've just gotten a call this morning for 2 more articles, from the same person. So, I guess I'll be busy for the next 2 weeks, trying to complete these articles. Hopefully, I don't get a 'writer's block' while completing them because that would be a disaster! After all, I am trying to make a living doing this kind of thing.

I do have other things I want to post about but for now, I think I have to get back to my articles. They don't get written by themselves, now, do they? Heh.

Enjoy your days!

  

Monday, October 10, 2011

De ja vu (sp)?

Last night, just before I fell asleep, I felt a twinge in my right side. Didn't think anything of it because of the obvious reason; sleepy! hehe.

This morning, the pain was still there, a constant stabbing pain. I kept hoping that it would go away, I thought maybe it was just gas (I'm slightly constipated, normal during pregnancy, right?) or it was just stomachache. Nope, I went and passed gas and pooped and the pain is still here.

After about 2 hours, I couldn't take it anymore. So, I woke Ahmad up and we went to the clinic because I kept thinking back to 2007, when I had an ectopic pregnancy. The pain is similar to the one I experienced before and this time around, I do not want to wait 3 days before I see a Doctor.

At the clinic, I had a urine test to check for UTI but the test was cleared. Then, a nurse scanned the baby, which made me totally forgot about my pain, just watching my tiny baby moving around in my womb. Very nearly cried if not for the pain in my right side. She suspected appendicitis, so she referred me to the Doctor. At that point, I didn't really care about the pain anymore since I know that my baby is alright and I don't have to worry about him/her. But I went to see him anyway.

After poking at my side a few times and asked about the laparoscopy I had in 2007, the Doctor told me to come back if I vomit and/or have a fever and if the pain intensified. Finally he sent me home with some painkillers, Paracetamol 500mg, to be exact.

WTH?????

Ughhhhhhh...looks like I'm just gonna have to endure it till whenever............

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Pregnancy related issues.

I've been reading Cecily's blog for a long time now and she is an inspiration to me. She writes about anything and everything under the sun. Most especially about her darling daughter, Tori and about the lost of her twins, Zachary and Nicholas.

Apparently, this month she is concentrating on women's health and one of the most important topic that I find interesting to read is about pregnancy related issues. Please go read her article here and here she wrote about issues mothers face after giving birth. Both articles have been eye-opening for me, even now, with my 3rd pregnancy. 

The first issue struck a nerve in me, firstly because next year, in April, I will be facing the same life and death situation faced by all pregnant mothers in this world. Secondly, the stats she presented are terrifying, to think that even with today's medical advances, women still have to face their mortality when they should be celebrating a new life. I've heard stories of friends who experienced horrible birthing situations and I'm sure you have too. I still remember precisely what happened during Shahrin's birth and had even said that I don't ever want to go through it again. Luckily, I had an easy labor with Nazrin though I cheated since I opted for the C-section instead of waiting for normal labor. Apparently he had pooped in the womb (medically known as Meconium Aspiration) while I was only 3cm dilated. The Doc advised us not to wait since it could affect his health, so we agreed to her suggestion. 

As for the second issue, my mom had repeatedly warned me about post partum depression or in Malay "meroyan". She told me not to worry too much about stuff and to ask for help whenever I feel overwhelmed with anything at all. I guess that's why we have 40 days confinement period, where the mother and the newborn are looked after by relatives, especially grandmothers, just so the mother can rest and recover. I do believe this period is necessary, to make sure that someone would always be around just in case the mother IS having PPD or just having a hard time coping with a new baby. That way, she can get the treatment she needs to get better.

Thank you Cecily for the articles. They are truly informative and hopefully will give me more knowledge on how to manage my pregnancy, labor and post-labor situations.  


Friday, October 7, 2011

Back in business...FINALLY!

Hi all,

And peace be upon you to all my muslim friends.
Alhamdulillah, my pregnancy has finally hit the 2nd trimester & I am glad, GLAD! to tell you that I am 70% back to my old self. I don't feel so fatigued all the time, my appetite is almost normal (still feel nauseated when eating but I've managed to keep things down), morning-sickness is bye-bye and I don't sleep 5 times a day anymore. 

During this month's check-up, my weight has gone up 1.4kg! Sadly, I am now officially in the 90~kg region. Bummer. I've always kept my weight in the mid 70~kg all through my 20's (yes, I know, not my ideal weight but at least my weight was consistent back then) but right after my pregnancy with Shahrin and Nazrin, my weight has gone up and up and up and up. *sigh*   

As for the chaos in the house, I've managed to settle some of my more pressing chores by taking the 'divide and conquer' approach. By breaking up a BIG problem into smaller ones, I can honestly say that the house is not looking like a disaster area anymore. Well, not as bad as it was during my 1st trimester, that is.

With the mountain-high clothes, waiting to be folded, I micro-managed them by making 4 piles; mine, Ahmad's, Shahrin's and Nazrin's. Then, I focused on folding one pile at a time, till the pile is finished. Though the process of laundry-folding can never be conclusively finished, since I wash at least 2 loads everyday, I am glad I took this approach as it gave me peace of mind while still keeping me sane. As oppose to trying to fold every piece of clothing in that pile while trying to sort them into their respective drawers, at the same time, by focusing on one pile at a time, I save time and get back on track.   

I did the same with the floor. As soon as I felt fine enough, which was around early last week, I chose one area a day for sweeping. I have at least 3 major areas; bedrooms, kitchen and living room. Thankfully, my sons no longer have blackened soles from running around on dirty floors as I have also managed to mop the floor too. 

I have more updates but right now I have to see to my sons. They're playing outside and Ahmad's not around to watch them.

Toodles!

Monday, September 26, 2011

Into the 2nd trimester...

Yup folks, I'm inching closer to the 2nd trimester of my pregnancy.

Let me tell you, this time around, I feel like a train wreck! The house is a total loss, the laundry is pilling up, luckily I have an 'understanding' husband who buys me lunch and dinner so that I don't have to cook. So, the dishes are not quite the problem. I haven't swept the floor in over a week (HORROR!!!) and my sons have blackened soles from running around on un-mopped floor.

The nausea and the morning sickness are almost over, almost, but I still don't have my appetite back. It's kinda frustrating to eat my favorite food yet unable to savor them the way I always do. Let's not forget the constant hunger. OMG! It never goes away even when I couldn't enjoy my food.

I've also been so tired, lethargic almost, for the past 2 months. Hence the wrecked house. I've been sleeping early, waking up every couple hours or so to pee (I very nearly bought myself diapers for grown-ups, seriously! ) and wake up still feeling as if I haven't slept a wink. Then, I spent all day long either sitting down or laying down.

Hopefully, with the 2nd trimester, I'd feel considerably better and back to my usual self coz I can't live like this anymore!!!! I looked at the piled up clothes with a heavy heart while they beckon me, taunting me to come and fold them up pretty. SIGH.

My offer still stands......

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Friday, September 9, 2011

After a long hiatus...

Hi all,

Been feeling under the weather these past months. Must be 1st trimester sickness. Sigh.
I've never been this weak with the boys before. Haven't done much around the house.
Mostly I'd leave things till I absolutely have to do them (read: wash dishes ONLY when we've run out of clean ones, do laundry ONLY when the basket is overflowing, etc).

In a way, this is my excuse for not blogging. Heh. Lame much?

Anybody close by who would like to help me tackle household chores for a bare minimum wage, please give me a call.

Till the 2nd trimester people. Hopefully I'll be more energetic by then. Huhuhu.

Friday, August 26, 2011

Random thoughts..

1. I watched The Edge of the Garden last night on ASTRO's Channel 702. About half an hour later, I began to have a feeling that I've watched this movie before, though not the same actors. I kept having deja vu moments while watching this Hallmark movie. Then, it hit me. 

The Lake House!!

Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock! Individuals from different times, falling in love with each other. Just like the characters in last night's movie. What a rip off!

The Edge of the Garden:


PLOT: 
A lonely businessman temporarily relocates to Maine after a bad breakup. He moves into a rundown cottage, where he meets the beautiful spirit of a woman who lived in the house fifty years before. As they form a friendship, they begin to help each other in ways they never knew were possible, and change both their fortunes forever.


http://itsawonderfulmovie.blogspot.com/2010/10/edge-of-garden-hallmark-channel.html
The Lake House:


PLOT:


A lonely doctor who once occupied an unusual lakeside home begins exchanging love letters with its former resident, a frustrated architect. They must try to unravel the mystery behind their extraordinary romance before it's too late.


http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0410297/

Similarities:
a) Both stories involves the 'supernatural', two person falling in love but they are from
different times, just sharing the same space; the house.
b) Both stories have the characters exchanging letters, in The Lake House, Sandra and
 Keanu had the mailbox while in The Garden, Rob and Sarah placed
their letters in a cookie tin and hid it in the fireplace.


Differences:
In the end, Sandra and Keanu did get together, happily ever after while Rob did find Sarah again, problem is, she's old BUT she did have a granddaughter
who's the spitting image of her, so win-win in the end.

And enough of this.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Moving on.


2. I'm having horrible morning sickness for this first trimester. Haven't fasted in 8 days. Don't think I'll be able to finish this fasting month *sad*. I was hoping to be able to complete the whole month but the baby had other thoughts. Even after sahur, I'd be so hungry by 9am, my stomach heaving and acting up that I have to break my fast. *sigh*


Hopefully my Eidul Fitri day wouldn't be so bad. 

Monday, August 15, 2011

Booking completed.

After sending Shahrin off to pre-school this morning, I came back home to a still-sleeping Ahmad and Nazrin. I've told Ahmad that we need to go to the clinic this morning for 'booking' purposes. When he said he didn't want to go, after telling me last night that he would, I got pissed and went ahead without him and Nazrin. At least I wouldn't have to run around after Nazrin at the clinic while waiting for my booking to be processed.

Booking is a procedure that all pregnant ladies have to go through, in order to get the required medical attention throughout their pregnancy. They will be given a pink book that records all their medical complications or pregnancy progress, for the duration of their pregnancy for safe-keeping. They would have to bring this book every time they have an appointment with the Dr. or just a follow-up with the nurses. This pink book is also important during delivery at the hospital. The medical team at the hospital will need to look at the records in that book in order to come up-to-date with the patient's pregnancy status.

So, since this is my third pregnancy and I already have a medical record at our local clinic, my booking was quite simple. For a first-timer, she would have to bring a copy of her husband's IC and their marriage certificate to give to the registration desk. As for my case, I just bring along my old pink book, during my pregnancy with Nazrin and give that to the nurse at the desk.

Then another nurse took me to the clinic's mini-lab to draw my blood. She kept one vial of my blood for HIV status checks while she sent me to the main clinic with another vial for another routine blood screen. The results came back normal for all my blood properties. After that, quite a long wait while yet another nurse prepares my third pink book.

She had to go through quite a long list of pregnancy-related medical conditions, ticking some while dashing others, according to my history. I've been categorized as a 'green-code' patient because
                         1. I have had 2 major operations (pregnancy related; ectopic pregnancy and a C-section for
                             Nazrin),
                         2. A history of premature birth (Shahrin, at 33 weeks)
                         3. Both my boys were born with birth weight of less than 2.5kg
                                        and last but not least
                         4. I weigh more than 80 kg (over-weight) heheh.

As usual, I was given the usual pep talk during pregnancy; don't lift heavy things, eat healthily, eat my vitamins and having lots of rest.

Well, that's all for this visit. Next month I have an appointment with the Dr for a scan.

For now, we're heading out to buy food for Iftar. Bye!!!

Friday, August 12, 2011

Third time's the charm?

Let's hope so heheh.

- The original post has been edited to add these words from the sponsor -

Terima kasih Anonymous kerana menegur. Saya call beberapa kenalan tadi dan betul la, amalan ni khurafat sebab percaya kepada makhluk selain ALLAH. Sebenarnya, tujuan saya tulis cerita ni hanya sebab nak beritahu khabaran gembira yang kebetulan hampir serupa dengan apa yang berlaku waktu tu. Bukan sebab saya percaya dengan ramalan tu. Dan bukan juga dengan niat nak mengajar orang lain ke jalan yang sesat. Masa buat tu ingat kut macam takpe la sebab berselawat kepada Nabi Mohammad dan mulakan dengan Al-Fatihah, tambahan pula cetek ilmu. Rupa-rupanya perbuatan ni salah. Alhamdulillah ada orang sudi menegur. Terima kasih sekali lagi.    

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Cabaran #2 [iPad MySuperKids]: PENCARIAN DUIT DI BULAN RAMADHAN

Salam semua,

Ini adalah nukilan terakhir aku buat cabaran kali ini. Tambahan pula, hari ni memang hari terakhir peserta perlu hantar penyertaan.

Oleh kerana pihak penganjur dah bagi tema DUIT, RAMADHAN atau kedua-duanya, aku terpanggil untuk nukilkan penyertaan tyerakhir ini dengan menggabungkan kedua-duanya sekali.

Seperti cabaran terdahulu, kali ni aku nak promote pulak business venture ke-2 aku.



Tadaaaa.....

Aku jadi Rakan Niaga Tanpa Modal dengan pembekal tudung di Perlis. Aku promote di Facebook dan dapat komisyen dari hasil jualan tudung-tudung ni. Setakat ni ada album Dhia Raisya, Dhia Plain, Raisya Curly Twist, Raisya Curly dan Plain Curly. Ada lagi kalau tak silap tapi kekangan masa mendesak aku segera menyudahkan nukilan ini.

Setakat ini, jualan masih diperingkat merangkak kerana baru lagi aku menyertai program RN ni. Harapanku, jualan akan meningkat supaya aku boleh shopping baju raya anak-anak dengan hasil komisyen tu nanti, insya ALLAH.

Kalau ada yang ingin meninjau, silalah ke Facebook saya, klik pada badge saya tu yer.

Tak lupa juga jualan baju kurung menyusu di bawah label Bling Buubies. Ada juga di Facebook photos milikku itu.

Dengan ini, tamatlah sudah nukilan untuk cabaran kali ini.
Harap bertemu lagi di Cabaran #3, insya ALLAH.

 “Entri ini ditulis untuk cabaran #2 iPad MySuperKid yang direviu oleh fazya nisa’ & Adam Mohamad
dan ditaja oleh Adorable Muslimah"

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Cabaran #2 [iPad MySuperKids]: RAMADHAN YANG MEMBAWA BERKAT

Insya ALLAH, setakat hari ke-9 Ramadhan ni, aku masih mampu berpuasa. Harap-harap dapat berpuasa penuh sebulan tahun ni supaya tahun depan tak payah ganti. Heheh.

Sebenarnya, pada awal Ramadhan, niat di hati nak muat-naik gambar-gambar makanan bersahur & berpuasa yang aku masak. Ada jugak sekeping dua gambar yang berjaya di ambil tapi bila masuk hari ke-3 puasa, dah terlupa nak ambil gambar. Masak pun ulangan ja (perangat balik lauk2 yang tak habis). Mana taknya, walaupun kat rumah ni ada 3 orang dewasa, aku sorang je yang kuat melantak. Si adik ipar biasanya berbuka di masjid, Ahmad pulak makan ala kadar je, sekadar recreational-eater ja Ahmad ni heheh. Lepas dengar azan, minum air lepas tu ngadap rokok dulu dua tiga batang. Bila dah kenyang asap, mana ada selera nak makan nasi dah, ye tak? Setakat ni, baru 2 hari kami beli makanan di Pasar Ramadhan, tu pun sebab aku dah tak larat nak fikir apa yang nak dihidangkan untuk berbuka.

Apa-apa pun, aku bersyukur kerana masih dikurniakan kesihatan untuk berpuasa tahun ini. Masih mampu untuk melaksanakan kewajipan harian dengan tabah (walaupun tahap kesabaran tu agak goyah). Aku juga bersyukur kerana telah dikurniakan hadiah yang cukup istimewa pada bulan yang cukup barakah ini. Kiranya, dah 2 kali perkara ini berlaku dalam seumur hidupku yang baru (baru yer heheh) mencecah 32 tahun. Alhamdulillah..betul kata sahabat baikku dalam nasihat beliau di laman Facebook sewaktu aku mengamuk sakan selepas Ahmad veto aku berhenti kerja bulan lepas. Pandai sungguh beliau meneka!

Bulan ni juga, aku telah mengambil langkah mengajar Nazrin (2 tahun 3 bulan) potty-training. Aku dah mula ajar dia supaya bila nak kencing atau buang air besar, cepat-cepat ke bilik air. Hari mula, terjadi 2 kali 'kemalangan kecil' tapi aku tak kisah sebab Nazrin baru nak belajar. Tak seperti Shahrin dulu, disebabkan masalah sembelit yang teruk, di tambah pulak dengan sikap dia yang terlalu banyak minum susu dan tak mahu makan, aku tak potty-train dia sampailah umur dia 3tahun lebih. Tu pun, tiap-tiap hari aku akan cakap kat Shahrin, "Nak kencing cakap kat Ibu tau!" dan tiap-tiap hari, ada saja 'kemalangan kecil'. 

Alhamdulillah, hari ni dah kiranya 9 hari Nazrin tak pakai lampin pakai-buang di siang hari. Termasuk semalam, baru 4 'kemalangan kecil' dan 1 'kemalangan besar' yang sempat dielakkan. Syukur sangat-sangat sebab berjaya kurangkan perbelanjaan beli lampin pakai-buang. Malam lain kira la, rasanya tunggu Nazrin punya cue macam mana, dia akan kencing dalam lampin atau tak malam2. Macam anak adik aku, bila bangun pagi-pagi Mama dia periksa lampin dan didapati lampin pakai-buang tu tak basah, dalam umur 4 tahun dah berhenti terus pakai lampin pakai-buang. Shahrin jugak yang belum lulus bab tidur malam ni, masih perlu pakai lampin pakai-buang walaupun dah kencing sebelum tidur.

Apa-apa pun, aku bersyukur kerana masih hidup dan masih mampu beribadat. Aku bersyukur kerana hidup di Malaysia yang aman, damai dan kaya raya ni. Doaku kirim buat muslimin dan muslimat di negara yang sedang di landa kemarau/bencana alam/perang. Semoga ALLAH memberkati mereka semua.

“Entri ini ditulis untuk cabaran #2 iPad MySuperKid yang direviu oleh fazya nisa’ & Adam Mohamad
dan ditaja oleh Adorable Muslimah"

Cabaran #2 [iPad MySuperKids]: ADA APA DENGAN DUIT?

Salam Ramadhan,

Nampak gaya, aku ni makin rajin menulis dalam bahasa ibunda. Adakah ini perkembangan terbaru atau hanya sekadar memenuhi keperluan cabaran Ipad ini? Entahlah, yang pasti, hanya tinggal 2 hari sebelum cabaran kedua ini tamat tempoh. Maka, aku harus berusaha menghasilkan sekurang-kurangnya 2 nukilan lagi, insya ALLAH.

Tajuk kali ni, ADA APA DENGAN DUIT?

Bila ada duit hingga ke tahap ribuan atau jutaan malah puluhan juta, manusia boleh lupa diri dan mula menurut hawa nafsu...
Rapper Lil Wayne 'menghujani' kelab malam dgn duit
Kapal persiaran terbesar di dunia milik pemilik kelab bola sepak Chelsea, Roman Abrahamovich


Nakheel Tower, milik putera mahkota di Dubai
Tiga gambar di atas kredit kepada Abg Obe dari BlogSerius

Namun, bila tiada duit, mangsanya adalah anak2 kecil tidak berdosa:


atau cuba menipu demi duit,


Berkaki palsu tapi meminta sedekah di pasar ramadhan
Gambar ini daripada blog Abg Mazidul 

Tepuk dada, tanya selera.

Akan menyusul entri seterusnya tapi entah bila. Tungguuuuuuuuuuuuuuu..............

“Entri ini ditulis untuk cabaran #2 iPad MySuperKid yang direviu oleh fazya nisa’Adam Mohamad

 dan ditaja oleh Adorable Muslimah

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Kenangan kutip duit raya: Cabaran #2 [iPad MySuperkids]

Salam Ramadhan semua.

Ya, cabaran #2 [iPad MySuperKids] dah bermula dengan tema DUIT dan Ramadhan. Boleh pilih nak tulis pasal duit atau nak tulis pasal Ramadhan atau kedua-duanya sekali.

Hmmm..sahabat baik aku yang sekarang sedang menuntut di Australia ada memberi cadangan bernas, banyak sebenarnya cadangan yang telah diberi. Daripada berapa belas cadangan beliau (banyak kan? bijak sungguh sahabat aku ini, tengah buat PhD, mestilah bijak kan hehe), aku terpanggil untuk menulis tentang DUIT RAYA dan kenangan bersamanya. Ya, walaupun kisah mengumpul duit raya tiada kaitan dengan Ramadhan, namun aktiviti ini ditunggu oleh kami adik beradik dan sepupu sepapat sepanjang Ramadhan.

Kebiasaannya, kami sekeluarga akan menyambut Hari Raya Aidil Fitri di rumah arwahTok Nab, mak Baba, di sebuah perkampungan sawah berhampiran Gunung Keriang, Alor Setar. Malam terakhir puasa kami dah berkumpul ramai2 depan TV arwah Tok Nab sambil Tok, kakak2 Tok dan Mama/Mak sibuk keletung keletang di dapur. Kami adik-beradik perempuan dan sepupu2 perempuan pun sibuk juga, keletung keletang dengan lesung batu Tok, tumbuk inai untuk dipakai malam tersebut. Lepas semua jari-jemari kami bersalut inai, masing-masing akan 'gantung tangan' supaya inai tak terpalit di mana2. Sebenarnya ini alasan untuk tidak menolong di dapur hehhe.

Pagi raya. Semua orang akan berebut nak masuk bilik mandi rumah arwah Tok. Mujur bilik mandi Tok ada dua, boleh gilir-gilir dan sebab masa tu masing-masing kecil lagi, boleh kongsi bilik mandi dengan sepupu atau adik beradik yang lain. Lepas mandi, masing-masing akan tayang baju raya baru dan bersiap cantik2 untuk ke masjid. Aktiviti yang paling ditunggu sebenarnya ialah lepas habis sembahyang Sunat Aidil Fitri sebab waktu ni la Baba, arwah Pak Lang dan Paksu (adik2 Baba) akan agih-agihkan duit raya. Masa tu arwah Pak Lang dan Pak Su akan bagi duit RM2 saja pun tapi bagi kami semua, RM2 tu pun dah banyak. Bukan macam sekarang, RM5 pun macam tak cukup. Duit raya yang kami dapat tu wangi, masih baru dan berturut no. sirinya. Biasala, duit tu ditukar di bank semasa bulan puasa, mestilah wangi dan baru. Sampul pun cantik2, kadang-kadang sampul bank, kadang-kadang sampul pasaraya besar dan semua orang akan simpan baik2 duit dan sampul tu.

Lepas makan hidangan yang pelbagai sampai penuh meja bulat kat rumah arwah Tok tu, aku dengan adik-adik dan sepupu kami akan mintak kebenaran keluar rumah dari Baba sebab nak pusing kampung, kutip duit raya. Zaman tu takde masalah pun kalau budak2 nak keluar tanpa ibu bapa. Takde orang risau pun pasal kes culik atau rogol atau rompak. Biasanya aku lah ketua sebab aku pernah tinggal dengan arwah Tok dan kebanyakan jiran (yang sebenarnya adik beradik Tok jugak) kat kampun tu aku kenal.

Oleh sebab kampung Tok ni perkampungan bendang, ianya memanjang, sepanjang parit/tali air yang membekalkan air ke sawah padi disekeliling kampung. Kalau ikut orang kampung Ahmad, diorang panggil 'tebuk', kalau ikut Baba pulak, katanya 'peda', diambil dari perkataan Inggeris, "feeder" merujuk kepada tali air yang 'feed' air kepada bendang2. Walaupun kampung ni panjang, kami tak rasa penat pun sebab setiap buah rumah agak rapat dan kadang2 bertembung tengah jalan pun akan ada orang sedekah duit raya. Biasanya kami akan ziarah rumah jiran terdekat dulu dan minum/makan juadah yang terhidang. Dodol, ketupat, nasi himpit, ayam masak merah, kurma daging, laksa, bihun sup....ughhh...sebuah rumah pun dah kenyang. 

Selalunya bila ziarah rumah ke rumah, kami akan dapat RM0.20-RM0.50 (dua kupang atau lima kupang kata orang utara) sebuah rumah. Kami simpan baik2 duit tu dalam beg galas yang comel. Habis melawat jiran terdekat dan perut pun kembali kenyang, kami berjalan sampai ke hujung kampung dan mula dari hujung balik ke rumah Tok. Sebab rumah Tok ditengah2 kampung, kami akan ke hujung kanan kampung dulu dan patah balik ke rumah Tok untuk makan. Sebabnya kami akan makan kuih raya saja bila menziarah rumah yang jauh2. Lepas dah makan tengah hari di rumah Tok, baru kami menziarah rumah sebelah kiri kampung pulak. Perancangan kena rapi, baru boleh kumpul duit raya banyak hehe. 

Menjelang tengah hari, beg kami akan berbunyi rancak dengan duit2 syiling yang terkumpul. Sampai rumah Tok, duit pusingan pertama kami simpan baik2 dalam beg balik kampung masing2. Lepas makan, kami pun bersedia untuk pusingan kedua. Kadang2 ada orang tumpangkan, biasanya kami jalan kaki pelan-pelan sambil nyanyi lagu raya. Kadang2 kena ligan dengan angsa, kadang2 kena sakat dengan budak2 lelaki yang lebih tua. Semuanya kami tak peduli, demi mengumpul duit raya. Lepas habis pusing kampung pun boleh dapat duit raya lagi, tetamu Tok yang bagi. Arwah Tok selalu masak macam2 dan dia pun memang pandai masak, jadi ramai yang akan datang. Lagipun, arwah Wan tok guru Quran kampung tu, jadi ramai jugak ibu bapa yang akan bawa anak2 diorang datang melawat.

Arwah Tok pun biasanya akan suruh Baba tukar duit kertas dengan duit syiling banyak2 sebelum raya. Arwah akan letak duit tu dalam batil besi ditepi pintu masuk rumah. Kalau ada budak2 kampung yang datang beraya, Tok akan jemput masuk. Biasanya budak2 tu tak masuk, macam kami jugak, tunggu kat luar saja dan bila dah dapat duit, diorang akan ke rumah lain pulak. Tok selalunya bagi sorang dua kupang tapi menjelang tahun 90-an, Tok naikkan jumlah tu jadi lima kupang. Waktu ni, aku, adik2 aku, sepupu2 kami pun dah tua dan tak buat dah aktiviti pusing kampung kutip duit raya heheh.

Duit raya yang dikumpul bukan diguna untuk membeli apa2. Mama dan Baba selalu pesan kena berjimat cermat, jadi masing2 dah ada akaun bank sendiri. Biasanya lepas raya, Mama akan tolong kami kira duit2 syiling yang banyak tu dan bungkus elok2 dalam kertas untuk dibawa ke bank nanti. Syiling sekupang sebungkus RM5, syiling dua kupang pun sama. Syiling lima kupang plak, sebungkus RM10. Kadang2 Mama akan cukupkan kiraan duit raya kami adik beradik. Contohnya, kalau aku dapat RM83, Mama akan tambah bagi cukup RM85 atau RM90. Sekarang ni jumlah ni macam sikit saja kan tapi masa tu, bagi kami, duit ni dah cukup banyak.

Bila dikenang kembali, rindu pulak zaman kanak2 tu. Waktu kami pindah ke Alor Setar dan tinggal di kawasan perumahan, tak ramai pun budak2 yang datang rumah untuk beraya dan kutip duit raya. Bila beraya rumah Tok pun dah tak semeriah waktu kami kecil. Tok dah tak larat nak masak bagai, Wan pun waktu tu dah meninggal, jadi orang yang datang beraya pun dah kurang. Masa Baba bawak Tok tinggal dengan dia pun macam tu, tak ramai orang datang melawat. Mungkin sebab diorang tak tahu rumah Baba di mana, mungkin diorang tertunggu2 Tok balik kampung. 

Entah la, yang pasti kenangan kutip duit raya tu hanya tinggal kenangan. Kesian anak2 aku, tak dapat merasa suasana raya yang semeriah dulu.

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Monday, August 1, 2011

Weird...

I'm not sure why but I feel a bit weird by the way things are these days. I'm talking in terms of my freelance business(?) which kind of halted the whole 2 month that I worked outside. Before I worked, I'd get at least 3-4 requests for proofreading/editing or translating documents. But during my 2 month working stint, I got only one! request for proofreading.

I did wonder about this situation but didn't think much of it. However, now that I'm not working (3rd day since I quit my job) and back to being a SAHM, I'm already swamped with requests of writing up a document and a questionnaire. Not that I'm complaining though heheh.

Maybe its true that GOD works in mysterious ways.
Syukur Alhamdulillah.  

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Duit, duit, di mana kau duit???

Hahha...

tetiba ja ada entry dlm BM plak..

cabaran #2 [ipad mysuperkids] dah diumumkan, tema kali ni duit

hmm...duit...perkara yg penting dlm hidup

setengah org kata duit tak janjikan kebahagiaan

tp ramai yg mesti setuju yg duit tu mmg keutamaan dlm hidup kita skg ni

kerana duit, manusia merana; banyak duit pun susah, takde duit pun susah

haissyyy...


duit..duit...

syarat2 cabaran kali ni belum keluar, so masih dlm proses mencari idea

kepada sesiapa yg sudi menyumbang idea kreatif utk cabaran kali ni

sila2 lah komen ye..mekasih :p

Thursday, July 28, 2011

N.E.V.E.R.

Me, sitting in Ahmad's mom's living room, watching The Mexican on TV2, while trying out my new lappy and new Maxis broadband modem, right now, crying my eyes out.

The boys fast asleep. Ahmad is out as usual.

The scene just now; Sam (Julia Roberts) and LeRoy as well as Sam with Jerry (Brat Pitt (woot woot!!!))...



Scene 1: While sitting at the curb waiting for Jerry (Sam's boyfriend), LeRoy asked Sam a question.

LeRoy: "When two people who are so deeply in love with each other, can't stand each other any  more.          
              When is the point where enough is enough?"
Sam:     "Bla bla bla...(run-around answer...)"
LeRoy: "That's not the right answer."


Scene 2: Sam was supposed to board a plane and leave Jerry but she didn't. As she stood at the departure gate, she asked Jerry the same question LeRoy asked her.

Sam:     "When two people who are so deeply in love with each other, can't stand each other any  more.
              When is the point where enough is enough?"
Jerry:    "Never."



I have been like Sam when I wrote this.
I don't know about Ahmad though. What would his answer be if I asked him this?

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Have You Ever....

1. Sat down in front of your lappy/PC and feel lost? Just sat there, staring at it, not knowing what the heck are you going to do now?

2. Went to the kitchen or any other place in your house and stopped dead in your track thinking, "Bloody hell, what am I doing here?"

3. Picked up your kids' toys and felt bewildered with the enormity of the chaos they've created?

4. Looked at your (in my case, my MIL's) messy living room and thought, "Argghhhhh!!!!! Not again!!!!!"?

5. Locked up your bedroom door just so that your kids can't bother you?


Me? No. 1 - 4 most of the time.
As for No. 5, I wish our bedroom door HAS keys so I can lock it up. Heheh. 

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Counting down to Staying-At-Home-Again

So,

today is Tuesday.

Tomorrow would be Wednesday and the day after tomorrow would be?

Thursday! Yes! Pandai anak Ibu..eh..silap heheh

And finally, the day after the day after the day would be FRIDAY....

I think Friday would be my last day as a working mom :'(

At least I'll be getting my pay by then. 

Friday, July 22, 2011

Weird dreams..

I've been having weird dreams lately.

Weird as in "What the ??"

One was about a girl catching a ghost (of all things) and a few of her friends documenting the event.
Another one was about a spooky dorm, complete with bubbling pools (kolam tadahan air tuu) and doors closing by themselves.
And yet another one was about my primary school, where I was the teacher (this was the first weird dream, minus the 'paranormal' activities in the newer, more recent dreams) and I needed to do some rescuing.  

What's so weird about these dreams?


They all have my friends in them; high school friends and primary school friends.
Not all of them, just a few of my closest friends.

Really weird, especially the paranormal focus of the dreams themselves.

Does anybody know how to decipher dreams?

Anyone?

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Thank you..

Thank you 
from the bottom of my heart
for those who has shown concern 
towards my predicament.

Your thoughts and well wishes are deeply appreciated.
I haven't given up.
I will still try to convince him to let me keep working.

Pray for me.