S.E.D.I.H.

SHAHRIN DAH DI KIDNAP OLEH MAK AHMAD...

SESUATU YG AKU AMAT TAKUTKAN TELAH TERJADI.....

LAMBAT LG DIA NAK BLK CNI.....WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IBU RINDU SHAHRIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Relief....

Remember what happened to me 2 weeks ago?
I had such a bad stomach pain, similar to the pain I experienced when I had the ectopic pregnancy.
After seeing the doctor that day, the pain persisted for 3 more days but less intense (or maybe that's just because of the paracetamol he gave me).
Then, the week after that, I had a bout of diarrhea and vomiting, from morning till late at night.
I couldn't keep anything down. The minute I'd finish eating (I couldn't even finish them), I threw up, followed by having to go to the toilet. I wanted to see a doctor that day but Ahmad was busy with something else and I didn't have the energy to drive by myself. So, I just prayed that it was just something I ate the day before and nothing serious.
Luckily, I felt better the next day, so we didn't see the doctor at all.

BUT...

A feeling lingered in me.
Nothing serious, just a fleeting thought.

I  didn't say anything about it to Ahmad.
I was worried about it though.

Fortunately, today, my fear has been lifted. Alhamdulillah!
I went for my routine check at my local clinic and the scan showed that my baby is well and kicking!
What a relief.

Now I am able to write about it.

After the abdominal pain, I googled the symptoms and had a few hits on preeclampsia. I read through them and I learned that:
        i) high blood pressure
        ii) protein in urine
        iii) swelling in the hands, feet or face
        iv) upper abdominal pain or chest pain or back pain
        v) breathlessness

are some of the signs and symptoms of preeclampsia. Although I found these signs worrying, I tried to keep calm since the doctor already told me that it was nothing. But the vomiting and diarrhea made me even more worried. I couldn't shake the feeling of impending doom.

I was worried that my baby has died and I didn't even know it. I googled just now. These came up. It was a scary read. Thank GOD it didn't happen.

Getting back in the groove...

I've finished one assignment, got 4 more to go.
The first one should have been easy, actually it was easy but my mind made it complicated.
I kept second-guessing myself while i was writing it because i kept thinking back to that time when i took that business writing course.

I kept thinking, "No, this is not good enough..", "I probably should write it this way..no..I should write it like this..", "Wait..this is not working..."

I kept thinking back to that girl who is 10 years younger than me. She was my classmate and she always get high marks for her writings. I've read through a few of her work and I have to admit, she has some pretty good contents.

Well, I've submitted that assignment anyway, so, no use worrying about it now coz I have one more of the same assignment to do. Just have to pick a different topic.

Wish me luck!

Forcing myself to post!

*sigh*

I've been wanting to post since....my last post but every time I log into my blog, clicked on the 'new post' icon, my mind would go blank. Or one of my boys would call me, to do something with him. Or Ahmad would need help finding something (as always...). Or something...you know?

Well, anyway, I am forcing myself to actually write something, anything today because I pity my blog. Not that I have lots of visitors here (Hai Aina!!! I see you!! hahaha) but it is nice to know that some of my friends still stop by to read it (Hai Adik! Zarin! Azza! -name-dropping- but who cares, right? hehe).

I can honestly say that I really envy writers who really depend on their writing for a living. Because if I were to be in their shoes, I'd long be booted out of the publisher's list for not writing anything in a very a long time.

I, however, have been busy proofreading a thesis and writing a few articles of my own, as a ghost-writer, that is. The thesis is done, I'm just waiting for the payment to come through before emailing it to its writer. The articles are in progress and I've just gotten a call this morning for 2 more articles, from the same person. So, I guess I'll be busy for the next 2 weeks, trying to complete these articles. Hopefully, I don't get a 'writer's block' while completing them because that would be a disaster! After all, I am trying to make a living doing this kind of thing.

I do have other things I want to post about but for now, I think I have to get back to my articles. They don't get written by themselves, now, do they? Heh.

Enjoy your days!

  

De ja vu (sp)?

Last night, just before I fell asleep, I felt a twinge in my right side. Didn't think anything of it because of the obvious reason; sleepy! hehe.

This morning, the pain was still there, a constant stabbing pain. I kept hoping that it would go away, I thought maybe it was just gas (I'm slightly constipated, normal during pregnancy, right?) or it was just stomachache. Nope, I went and passed gas and pooped and the pain is still here.

After about 2 hours, I couldn't take it anymore. So, I woke Ahmad up and we went to the clinic because I kept thinking back to 2007, when I had an ectopic pregnancy. The pain is similar to the one I experienced before and this time around, I do not want to wait 3 days before I see a Doctor.

At the clinic, I had a urine test to check for UTI but the test was cleared. Then, a nurse scanned the baby, which made me totally forgot about my pain, just watching my tiny baby moving around in my womb. Very nearly cried if not for the pain in my right side. She suspected appendicitis, so she referred me to the Doctor. At that point, I didn't really care about the pain anymore since I know that my baby is alright and I don't have to worry about him/her. But I went to see him anyway.

After poking at my side a few times and asked about the laparoscopy I had in 2007, the Doctor told me to come back if I vomit and/or have a fever and if the pain intensified. Finally he sent me home with some painkillers, Paracetamol 500mg, to be exact.

WTH?????

Ughhhhhhh...looks like I'm just gonna have to endure it till whenever............

Pregnancy related issues.

I've been reading Cecily's blog for a long time now and she is an inspiration to me. She writes about anything and everything under the sun. Most especially about her darling daughter, Tori and about the lost of her twins, Zachary and Nicholas.

Apparently, this month she is concentrating on women's health and one of the most important topic that I find interesting to read is about pregnancy related issues. Please go read her article here and here she wrote about issues mothers face after giving birth. Both articles have been eye-opening for me, even now, with my 3rd pregnancy. 

The first issue struck a nerve in me, firstly because next year, in April, I will be facing the same life and death situation faced by all pregnant mothers in this world. Secondly, the stats she presented are terrifying, to think that even with today's medical advances, women still have to face their mortality when they should be celebrating a new life. I've heard stories of friends who experienced horrible birthing situations and I'm sure you have too. I still remember precisely what happened during Shahrin's birth and had even said that I don't ever want to go through it again. Luckily, I had an easy labor with Nazrin though I cheated since I opted for the C-section instead of waiting for normal labor. Apparently he had pooped in the womb (medically known as Meconium Aspiration) while I was only 3cm dilated. The Doc advised us not to wait since it could affect his health, so we agreed to her suggestion. 

As for the second issue, my mom had repeatedly warned me about post partum depression or in Malay "meroyan". She told me not to worry too much about stuff and to ask for help whenever I feel overwhelmed with anything at all. I guess that's why we have 40 days confinement period, where the mother and the newborn are looked after by relatives, especially grandmothers, just so the mother can rest and recover. I do believe this period is necessary, to make sure that someone would always be around just in case the mother IS having PPD or just having a hard time coping with a new baby. That way, she can get the treatment she needs to get better.

Thank you Cecily for the articles. They are truly informative and hopefully will give me more knowledge on how to manage my pregnancy, labor and post-labor situations.  

Back in business...FINALLY!

Hi all,

And peace be upon you to all my muslim friends.

Alhamdulillah, my pregnancy has finally hit the 2nd trimester & I am glad, GLAD! to tell you that I am 70% back to my old self. I don't feel so fatigued all the time, my appetite is almost normal (still feel nauseated when eating but I've managed to keep things down), morning-sickness is bye-bye and I don't sleep 5 times a day anymore. 

During this month's check-up, my weight has gone up 1.4kg! Sadly, I am now officially in the 90~kg region. Bummer. I've always kept my weight in the mid 70~kg all through my 20's (yes, I know, not my ideal weight but at least my weight was consistent back then) but right after my pregnancy with Shahrin and Nazrin, my weight has gone up and up and up and up. *sigh*   

As for the chaos in the house, I've managed to settle some of my more pressing chores by taking the 'divide and conquer' approach. By breaking up a BIG problem into smaller ones, I can honestly say that the house is not looking like a disaster area anymore. Well, not as bad as it was during my 1st trimester, that is.

With the mountain-high clothes, waiting to be folded, I micro-managed them by making 4 piles; mine, Ahmad's, Shahrin's and Nazrin's. Then, I focused on folding one pile at a time, till the pile is finished. Though the process of laundry-folding can never be conclusively finished, since I wash at least 2 loads everyday, I am glad I took this approach as it gave me peace of mind while still keeping me sane. As oppose to trying to fold every piece of clothing in that pile while trying to sort them into their respective drawers, at the same time, by focusing on one pile at a time, I save time and get back on track.   

I did the same with the floor. As soon as I felt fine enough, which was around early last week, I chose one area a day for sweeping. I have at least 3 major areas; bedrooms, kitchen and living room. Thankfully, my sons no longer have blackened soles from running around on dirty floors as I have also managed to mop the floor too. 

I have more updates but right now I have to see to my sons. They're playing outside and Ahmad's not around to watch them.

Toodles!